It's a long journey about how I decided to share my inner world through silver jewellery. For many years, I crafted jewellery for myself, but one cold spring evening, everything changed.

On March 24, 2021, I sit in the office at my computer desk. The workday has long ended, and everyone has left. I'm alone in the empty room by a large window overlooking the inner courtyard with birch trees. It's been six months since I moved to Warsaw. Six months since I lost everything I had and left my native country forever. I had 60 minutes to gather my belongings and make it across the border into Poland, which would become my second home. Two small suitcases, bewilderment, and an absolute lack of understanding of who I am and what to do next.

For six months, my state of mind was very unstable. I felt weak, it seemed like I couldn't make decisions, couldn't stand up for myself. I felt as if I were suspended and not in control of reality.

I felt as if I were hanging above the ground, swaying over an abyss. I dangled like a puppet, my legs not feeling any support, while people around me simply watched. There was a sense of abyss beneath me, a feeling that my existence depended only where there were other people. I swung from one person to another, and the spinning sensation grew stronger. 

All I wanted was for someone among them to help me and stop this infernal machine of going in a futile circle, hold me close, and say that it was all over.  I felt very weak.

I was waiting for someone to reach out to me any moment, and my torment would end. I was waiting for my inner pendulum to stop if someone was nearby. But that dark evening, everything changed...

My inner state and my realization of my own strength changed.

By that point, I had been going through my entire life. All my 32 years, I had lived on autopilot. And then one devastating event that brought me down to zero forced me to break and rebuild myself. For six months, like an entirely blank puzzle, I pieced myself back together. Step by step, I recovered, hiding from the world. And now, in a foreign but already familiar country, I hold the reins of my own life. Still very weak to act, but strong enough to feel the ground beneath my feet.

My balance depends solely on me. 'I live, I feel, I breathe.'

At that moment, the abyss beneath my feet turned into solid ground. I felt confidence and strength in my own state of being. I felt that I no longer needed to wait for 'help from others,' that I am my own help.

I realized that no one else is in control of me anymore, neither people nor events. No matter what state I was in, no matter how much I swayed from side to side, I always had to listen to myself. To hear myself, to believe in myself, and to trust myself

It was on this late March evening that it was born - the pendulum. An image of a piece of jewellery representing my inner state: stability, confidence, balance.

I drew it so quickly on the first try that I didn't even understand how it happened. In my mind, an image immediately appeared of how it would look in silver and on what chain it should be.

The pendulum that always stops on its own. The pendulum that points the right way. Its spear-like perfect shape, a symbol of aspiration.

“I want to create it! My symbol of balance and self-awareness. My talisman. And I want to share it, I sincerely wish that everyone who's lost and forgotten their way to themselves, who so desperately thirsts for balance, finds it.”

So it all began. The story of creating my brand "Gorechik"

I wanted to sculpt it myself. I wanted to make it perfect, but I encountered a problem. From the sketch to the finished piece, there are many stages where the jewellery undergoes changes. My internal vision may differ from the jeweller's vision who will be crafting the piece.

I decided that the perfect way for me to create jewellery would not just be a simple sketch. It would be a precise 3D model that I create myself.

It took me a whole year to learn the interface of several jewellery design programs. I experimented, sculpted, modeled, and created one piece of jewellery after another. A whole year of studying the nuances of casting and polishing jewellery. I had to know everything so that in the end, it would turn out just as I originally envisioned. This is important because, first and foremost, I do it for myself.

On April 7, 2022, I was ready to release the first model of the pendulum. But it turned out that for six months, I revised it several more times. Every time I opened the design, I saw imperfections. Something always held me back, embarrassed me, and prevented me from releasing this design for mass production.

And then, once again, when all the fictional and expected deadlines were missed, sitting in a spacious coworking space, I froze in front of the monitor."

Here he is! Mine. The unique pendulum. It took me a year and a half to get to it. And now it is ready to go to others.

On October 25, 2022, I approved a unique chain on which it will hang. I also approved a smaller and lighter version of this pendulum.

This is how, slowly but with care for every millimeter of the jewellery, this unique pendulum was created. It is heavy, solid, made of pure silver.

The pendulum, a symbol of balance and inner strength.